today's rocky road

i need to find my strength all over again..
dependent isn't the way to be,
hard choices should be made &
massive amounts of prayers should be prayed..
i hope differences can be put aside within my home &soul
Therefore Christmas can be full of joy like it's promised...

i just want to spend Christmas with my love(d ones)....
this will be our first Christmas i hope by the 24th midday things are smoother than right now..

&i can spend a night with those i hold closer to my heart than anything in the world!

***no one said that this life would be easy...